Coffee Log, Year 2, Day 98


Coffee: House Blend, Ithaca Coffee

This morning I woke up dizzy. I’m still dizzy. I’ve been dizzy all day.

I drank water in the morning, and afternoon, and with dinner but that hasn’t helped. I drank coffee too, hoping to knock myself around with the caffeine. At 3:00pm, I went with some friends to the grocery store and bought a candy bar, thinking maybe I was hitting low blood sugar. Before that, I’d tried rinsing all the wax out of my ears.

I’d planned on taking a drive today. I wanted to go somewhere, anywhere, because it’s been a long time since I’ve gone somewhere, anywhere. But I figured it wasn’t safe with the way my eyes couldn’t quite keep in one place this afternoon.

Some days are like this. It’s not the first time my body has surprised me with a minor but persistent tick, a little disruption. Won’t be the last. It’s nothing too much to be worried about – maybe a sinus infection, or a particularly restless sleep – but it still reminds me of my physicality. I’m a body on firm earth. I can’t transcend the fickle fleshy bits.

Anyway, I’m off to bed now. I’ll try and wake up straightened out tomorrow. And maybe I’ll feel fantastic, but even that’s it’s own reminder of the flesh I’m bound to, the things I can’t control.

Currently Reading: Have picked a new book but not had the chance to start it yet; wanted to read today but reading with a dizzy head doesn’t end well

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To be alive is to be dizzy and not to know exactly where to go.

Ander Monson

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