Coffee Log, Year 2, Day 164

Hi.

Coffee:  Maxwell House Master Blend, Office Coffee

I talked to a friend in Denver. She had a couple peanut-butter cups that were laced with TCH. She bought them legal, of course, from a dispensary. I told her what I know about the banking business around pot, how most banks won’t hold the money even where it’s locally legal due to federal criminalization. That means many of the cannabis outlets are holding large sums of cash and have to spend money on electric fences, armed guards, that sort of thing. My friend said that gave her a weird image – kind of scary.

Meanwhile, men and women around the country are still getting locked up for possession.

My roommate has a plot at the community garden. She grows morning glories, mint and rosemary. She took me to the garden a few weeks ago while we were walking to the office. It was a hot day, I watched her water. There were flies buzzing around, a couple coupled beetles, and a bright blue lizard basking in the sun. She picked a cucumber from a plot a neighbor keeps for the community and we went home and soaked it in salt. The slices made the summer heat more bearable. That taste – like dipping your toes in the ocean.

Who’s allowed to share the harvest? I drink beer weekly and get high off it. I watch my neighbors raise vegetables in a garden. There’s nothing so human as putting seeds in deep soil, nurturing life until it grows. And there’s nothing so human as choosing who gets to benefit from that life and who’s life gets locked behind steel bars for picking the wrong plant.

Currently Reading: Queen, Suzanne Crain Miller

Support Relief for Family Suffering at the Border  – RAICES DONATION CAMPAIGN

Anthropomorphism is unavoidable, I am finding, in writing about gardening: weeds don’t just grow, they grow with intent, they grow aggressively. Well, they do, as any gardener knows. They sneak in and swarm up when your back is turned.

Penelope Lively, Life in the Garden

Coffee Log, Day 45

Hi.

Coffee: Venti Starbucks Americano

I grabbed coffee quick on the way to a pre-employment drug screening. The office was in a nest of other offices. It was brick. The parking lot was full. The waiting-room was full. No-one wanted to be there. The staff was stressed and the customers loud. People watched things on their phones. A kid kept talking about Bill Nye.

It’s weird living in a world that needs to know what’s inside you to accept you. I peed in a cup, they taped it up and took it to the back. When they run the urine they’ll find caffeine from coffee, a bit of protein from a weird kidney abnormality I’ve had since birth, but no drugs. And that’s enough? I’ve known some drug-doers. I’ve known some drug dealers. Some of the doers were bad people but most were complicated as anyone else. Some of the dealers just wanted a better pair of shoes.

I taught some kids whose brothers and mothers dealt drugs. Cocaine in a piss-cup is the same cocaine that frosts chocolate cake on a thirteenth birthday.

Currently Reading:
Tar Baby, Toni Morrison

Fund the Coffee Log 🙂https://ko-fi.com/livesaywriting  

““Some of us look for the Way in opium and some in God, some of us in whiskey and some in love. It is all the same Way and it leads nowhither.” – W. Sommerset Maugham

IMG_0698